[Worship Together 2] - Ascend The Hill

Sometimes this world seems bigger than it is
And I just can't help but see it this way
And I know you're telling me to cast my cares aside
You know I try, Oh I try

These walls that I build
Just won't let me see you
These walls that I build
Just won't let me hear you
And these walls are just walls
I build between you and me, Lord

If I could see you, if I could hear you
Then I'd know I need you just as before
'Cause I've barricaded these tendencies
My selfish pride, these things inside
They always get the best of me
Show me love, teach my truth
And break my heart, and bring me back to you
Oh bring me back to you.

Take these dreams, this is me
All I am, here at your feet
Take me as I am, with you I wanna be
Of all this world it's you I wanna see
So I'm here, I'm here on my knees
Oh, God, I need only to see your face again
I need only to head your voice again, Jesus
I have only all I am, all I am
And all I am is all I am in you

So I fall on my knees again
And I fall, I fall on my knees again
At your feet, oh Lord
And I fall, I fall on my kenes again
At your feet, oh God
And I fall, I fall on my knees again
Walls come crashing down
And I fall, I fall on my knees at your feet
And the walls come crashing down
And I fall, I fall on my knees
At your feet, Oh God

'Cause these walls are just walls
I built between you and me
Come and tear 'em down
These walls are just walls
I build between you and me
Tear 'em down, won't you tear 'em down
And these walls are just walls 
I build between you and me
Oh Jesus, please tear 'em down
And these walls are just walls 
I built between you and me

So I fall on my knees again at your feet, oh Lord
And I fall on my knees again
Walls come crashing down
And I fall on my knees again, oh God
And I fall on my knees again

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As deep as oceans dive

As high as mountains climb

So is my love for You

This is my love for You

You have my heart

Lord, you have my heart forever.

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The love of God is greater far

Thank tongue or pen can ever tall

It goes beyond the highest start

And reaches to the lowest hell

The guilty pair, bowed down with care,

God have His only Son to win

His erring child He reconciled

You and I pardoned from our sin.

Oh love of God, how rich and pure!
It shall forevermore endure
How measureless and strong!
The saints' and angels' song we sing
Holy holy!

When ancient time shall pass away, 
And earthly thrones and kingdoms fall
When men here refuse to pray

And all rocks and hills and mountains call
God's love, so sure, will still endure

All measureless and strong

Redeeming grace to Adams' race
Shall be the saint's and andels's song

Could we with the ink the ocean fill

And were the skies of parchment made

Were every stalk on earth a quill

And every man a scribe by trade

To write the love of God above

Would drain the ocean dry

Nor could the scroll contain the whole

Though stretched from sky to sky

Oh love of God, how rich and pure!
It shall forevermore endure

How measureless and strong!
The saints' and angels' song we sing
Holy, Holy!

Oh love of God, how rich and pure!
IT shall forevermore endure

How measureless and strong!
The saints' and angels's song we sing

Holy, holy!

How measureless and strong!
The saint's and angels's song we sing

Holy, holy!

How measureless and strong! 

The saint's and angels's song we sing
Holy, holy!

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All about this project:

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Summertime generally propels me into wanting to do something grand. Perhaps I'm trying to make up for all those summers when I was young that I stayed inside playing and didn't go on a wondrous trip hiking or something (my family just wasn't into that growing up). 

Last year, I did summer of 5/7/5 which was an everyday haiku project. Much less threatening than anything that takes an actual amount of dedication considering one (and when I say "one" I mean "I") can spill out a haiku in a matter of minutes. 

Back to this project: I started saying "Yes" to pretty much everything recently (no, not that...). I have spent the last couple years with often crippling anxiety that left me afraid to leave the apartment or do anything different or see anyone new. Luckily I was "busy" so most people believed that simple explanation of why I couldn't go to their birthday celebration or out to lunch.

There has also been a whole lot of static in my head the last few (10) years that I found very unhealthy ways to get rid of. All that stuff will come up soon enough. Luckily though I found writing, photography, and music which held me over for a while or at least took the edge off.

So firstly, this project is about words. Words I haven't spoken for years about struggle, about darkness, about fear. Words that make amazing songs that if you listen to you'll probably know more about me than my closest friends. Words that other people write and words that I write to get some of that stuff out of our heads. This is also about the Good News and those words that are forever changing my life. 

Secondly, this project is about pictures. I completed a 365 project, I attempted a 52-week (and just gave up due to a lack of drive behind it) and I love my camera (named Amera). If you're curious I'll put it out there right now, I shoot with a Canon XSi and a 50mm f/1.4. I have a Canon Powershot ELPH 300HS that I use for video. If I could be invisible and shoot I would be the happiest person in the world. I love anything candid and photojournalist-y (I'm aware I'm just making up words now) mostly because I feel incredibly awkward posing people. I'll be posting pictures from shoots over the summer that various friends (mostly Anna Peters and Conner Allen) put together where I tag along, usually prancing through the fields and holding lots of gear and laughing a ton. 

Thirdly, this project is about that wonderful melody that plays in my head. It won't be a huge part of this project, but I just know from experience that I can't go long without speaking/sharing music. 

This project is mostly about God. I am overwhelmed by a relentless love that has taken over my heart. I want to share that more than anything.

So, "all the noise everyone else is making" is just a small reminded to myself that it's okay to make noise. 

I can be found on youtube and tumblr as well as here (obviously). 

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What I'll be doing:

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Before this post just gets incredibly long (not that it hasn't already), here's what I'm doing:

1. Hopefully posting vlogs about topics to do with growing in your relationship with Christ and just as a person. Mostly, this is me learning to talk about God and how He is the ultimate source of my hope and peace while also learning how to talk after so many years of being silent. This is also bible-study 2.0 for myself.

2. Giving you an inside look into my daily-reading and journaling about God.

3. Posting pictures from the aforementioned photo-adventures with Anna and Conner.

4. Sharing words/lyrics/songs.

5. Giving shoutouts to amazing people who I want to recognize. 

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What You Can Do!

(Yes really, YOU)

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Believe it or not, I am not the ultimate source of brillant ideas (crazy I know) so I would love it for you, my audience, to give me ideas on what to discuss or write about. Challenge my relationship with Christ (I'm probably not going to have the answers but I would love to try!). You can email me at madisonlmc@hotmail.com, facebook me, comment on these posts, comment on youtube, message me on tumblr, whatever floats your boat is good with me. You can ask questions, leave comments, be overly nosey, all is welcome!

You can also ask me things. I'm pretty much open about everything in my life now past and present and if you're curious, go for it. If anyone who stumbles across this needs some help or advice, I can give it my best (if you email it's super anonymous too just fyi) or point you in some good directions. Asking for help has literally been the best thing I have ever done and there is everything right in wanting help or wanting to ask for it. 

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Saying YES

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Going back to the whole "saying yes" thing for a second, I really am not kidding. My schedule is crazy full with work and church/church activities and photo-adventures and so on and I will keep on packing it until I can't any longer. It is really incredible what happens when you just fully embrace the way that you're going to fail and embarrass yourself and just go for it. So this summer especially, I am consciously going for the "YES" attitude and not holding back.

This summer I want to push myself in all ways possible, and this is how I'll keep track. 

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Thank you for joining me on this crazy ride, and don't hesitate to contact me! I want some feedback :)

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I have decided I have resolved to wait upon you Lord. My rock and redeemer shield and reward, I'll wait upon you Lord.
You'll Come // Hillsong United